this is bad

i can't sleep
i can't sleep
oh my god.

time check : 4.24am & i'm like some hantu finding something to do
i'm bored plus i'm boring. hah!

oh my god.
my eyes tired from playing playstation2 in the middle of the night
yet i can't sleep.

oh my god oh my god.
so weird, if only i can stay awake like this while studying!
something must be wrong with me, talking bout studying during semester break.
oh my god.

gonna make myself sleeeeeep!
(ok, that sounds abit wrong.)

2004-cut

i was typing my name in google (for fun lah, i was bored)
& so i typed: hashilah
cause there was 2 shilah in westspring and i'm hashilah.

ok anyways, i typed my name
and i found this:
"Then Hashilah accidentally cut herself..
the teachers brought her to don't know where niaz..
hope she okay le bahx..
then we inside our work place playing.."
blog entry of 2004! hahahha, omg.
& the moment i saw this i automatically looked at my hand!
i totally forgot bout the incident ?

funny incident where i can actually point my bloody middle finger while walking ?
ehh i want to do that again!

a little play

alright,
another week of holidays just passed.
not sure whether that's a good thing or a bad thing.

cousin visited yesterday afternoon, at about 12.
even though she sms-ed me the night before
saying she'll be coming in the morning.
12 is morning huh, cousin ?

she used my lappy to do some powerpoint stuff
caused her microsoft office went haywire.
go school helpdesk & ask before school starts k.
& the interesting thing is,
i was still sleeping while she was happily in my room using the lappy.
too tired

then joked about some stuff,
like how once we broke my mother's vase accidentally
& my mum would scream
"if any other vase breaks, i'm gonna break both of your head too!"

then compared results, blah blah. =\
went off to work while she stayed until 10pm to finish up her powerpoint. 0.0

alright, work later.
& i'm free on wednesday!
friday night would be having dinner outside since it's my idiot sister birthday.
plus, i have yet to buy her anything.

think shilah thinkkk !

if that's ok with you

you were there & you were scared.
you still showed it

tried to put it all together franctically,
but you broke it all over again.

you were scared & you still showed it.

i just cant do it.

the voice inside my head

maybe there's 2 type of people in some case,

1. who took ages/years to get over. (eg. 4 years)
2. who took a month/months to get over.

sooo, stop comparing and make yourself sound so perfect.
guys are so contradicting.

haiyaa, i'm so lazy to entertain plus i'm super tired.

anyways, i'm known by some people as the one who eats alot.
i eat alot yet, i can't grow fat
so don't anyhow blame me for being unfair.

come back & stop this pain.
i'm super tired.

my place

but it's no use.

i've already had my fair share of closing doors.
be gone, just go away.

i hate reality, i hate you
i hate myself even more.

i hope you understand

i feel so choked up right now.
why do we keep on doing the same thing over & over again?
i can't keep up with your expectations
i'm sorry.