avril rock! :D

oh ya! school & work tomorrow. tuesday will be public holiday and wednesday will be e-learning day! which means no school for 2 days. haha!

but but, tuesday will be working 12-6 and wednesday will be out the whole day! wooooo. after which I will be memorising my music major scales and all. sooo sad.

and not forgetting the "oh-so-many-catch-up" to be done on modules!

gahhhhhhhhhhh.

reasons why I've been MIA-ing:

• school.
• work.
• band.

anyways, hope all good for you lot so far! sometimes, I think maybe I shouldn't join band? I've lost my touch on it though. I hate running/fast notes! gahhhhhhhh! and my lips always hurts after band practice! playing high notes is the shit. oh well. I'm gonna die on Saturday.

There's band this morning. Starts at 12(trombones) and it ends at around 530 instead of the 'supposedly' 430. gahhh. By then I was already like dead. Rushed and cabbed down to workplace! and the cab driver showed me Mr Lee Kuan Yew's house. with the police guarding it and all! so cool. cool cab driver! hahaha. and reached workplace at 6.38pm instead of the plan 600pm. oopss!

more rushing to be done in time to come.

Work was funn. Lame-ed around with Crystal, Eunice & Rachel Chan. Work was kinda hectic as customers kept on coming non-stop. 3k(:

oh oh oh! Edmund's(Yue) german friend came to Gelatissimo! hahahaha. Edmund wasn't there though! He came with another friend which is I think is another ang moh too! hahahahahha. & I served them! lol! zaid came to visit and he showed me his new New Urban Meal shirt. it's something like "lifetime Bitch Membership club" or something like that. can't really remember. =\

short update for now. It's currently 2.44am in the morning and the time was brought to you by Shilah!

ps: shilah kinda dead right now as she has yet to complete her tutorialssssssss.

diee!

*this post was meant for yesterday but for some bloody reason, I can’t log into blogger!*

hey!

and so, another day of school passed and here I am blogging bout it. Dad send me to school and so I didn't have the chance to take 184! :( hahahahaha. ok ok. get a grip.

Digital Electronics (DEL) was atrocious. 1001101 0010011 00101011 and whatsoever. and like yeah, too many "ge-ros" and "ones" make me go crazy. Me & edmund kept on looking at the clock saying "omg, it's only 30 mins so far!" and we were surprised to see someone in the same class. Edmund especially. "Is that aman?" hahahaha.

then went off for break! met up with the rest of 1A3 and went off to canteen 3 to have our lunch. and Janet was making some weird song bout me. hahahahaha. wth lahh. got my name! :p never mind, no problem janet. (: hahahahaha.

Telemunications was super boring. I was doing my own reading at the back while the lecturer was talking non-stop. I rather self-study then to listen to some monotonous freak. and I'm already sleeping even without him lecturing. and Engineering mathematics! hahaha. the lecturer was super act cute. like super duper act cute! will show you one day. me and edmund was laughing at the back of the classroom like nobody's business and I receive a bloody glare from Junius. I assume the glare was for being irritating i guess. heck!

went off to library to meet Yishan & Azizah as they booked a room in the library called "Darwin" and then off home we went! Took 184 home! and bumped into dhiya halfway down the trip. I was stoning and was like shocked to see her standing in front of me. "i'm stunned!"

and oh ya! whois Clement by the way ? He's in my Telemunications class ? will keep on the look-out. he asked Her Er how she knows me ? like hello... she's my bloody classmate last semester.


I don wan my holidae to end!!! says:
then he ask
I don wan my holidae to end!!! says:
he sae u noe tt tall girl
I don wan my holidae to end!!! says:
hw u noe her
shilah™ - says:
errr..... okk
shilah™ - says:
then
I don wan my holidae to end!!! says:
she from my tp class
shilah™ - says:
okk. then..

hahahahahahha. weird. 0.0

hope life been good for you!

speak soon.

hey.

saturday & sunday went off just like that! Now looking through engineering mathematics book.I have like some tutorials to be completed but damn tired and bored to do so. Maybe I'll do it during my break or something like that. gahh.

I'll mark this date, as in, 22 April as the day someone actually sms-ed some weird sms to some guy. heck. I've said it's not me anyways. boooooooooo. my conscience is damn clear. 184 184 184! :D

one fact you should know: I'm currently listening to Noah's Ark soundtrack. It's musical anyways. since NPBAND is playing that song. (: haaa.. having school later. and yes it's like almost lecture back-to-back. like yeah, bring it on. I'll be stoning anyways. Maybe I will put in a little effort to listen. Have to since it will be like 6 weeks to common test. oh well, life a bitch.

and there's this email that ngeeann sent about some overseas thingy like doing community services overseas in september. Maybe I should go? but on second thoughts, it's in september. hahahaha. we'll see how. nothing much on september anyways.

and oh ya! I saw vincent running after 184 bus today. He's looking well, fit and tall too. woah! He grown so much if he were to be compared to his scrawny secondary school look. hahahaha. and he managed to wave at me.

speak soon.

credits: shiqi's camera.

there's more from where that come from. :D

ps: eh! how many more days to payday? 0.0

hey.

band was surprisingly fun yesterday. The games weren't that bad. I love running around! sperm & egg! hah. Had sectional lunch with the rest. Didn't have the mood to eat, so we just mingle around and talk. We ate at canteen 1 which is the nearest while most went off to SIM to have their lunch.

Practice after that. I must say, it was quite difficult to start running on notes when it has been like, 1 year since I last touched an instrument and more than 5 years since I last touch a trombone as I switched from trombone to baritone for the SYF competition. and not to mention the high notes which been quite awhile. Leaving my lips all red and yeah, painful, tight and yeah pain. gahhhhh. But overall, the experience was fun! almost like the old time. (:

went off to work after that. I wanted to cab down but since I've got enough time, I slowly took bus and for the 3rd time, I actually alighted at the right stop! hah. okok I'm slow. 0.o cause usually I alighted like 2/1 stops earlier and have to walk a few distance. Then went off to meet khoo Shi Qi (aka tikus) first and bought dinner for myself as I was dead hungry.

work was fun as usual, for some reason, I think yesterday was more of a "photo-taking" day. woooooo. Zaid was taking disgusting pictures of himself. and shiqi's phone is seriously infected with photos of zaid & me! :D

ok, that was yesterday.

today, I woke up at 1.03pm instead of the planned 9am to do my tutorials. but die, I can't wake up. die die die die. and plus, my calculator is like dead and no batt. and which I haven't replace the batt.hahahahahaha okok I'm dead. I guess I'll try and do maths tonight after work & digital electronics tomorrow after school. I can do it! goo me!

will be working tonight, you know where to find me!

hope life been good.

speak soon.

hey.

alright, I was meddling around with the skin & it's not 100% completed yet! so pardon if it's too messy or what not. I'll try and get to it asap after my cock-eyeness, headaches & tiredness slowly drain away. my eyes are like @.@ now.

school was alright today. School started at 8am and ended at 12. Met up with the rest for lunch afterwhich I left to visit the workplace while others went of to their next class. :D

My plan of visiting the shop for just 2 hours slowly dragged till like 4 hours? oh well, expect the unexpected I guess. and stayed a little bit longer due to shiqi's begging. HAH. One week of school has passed and yet, I don't think I've recovered from my holiday mood. it's like I'm totally blank to anything that was taught to me those past 5 days. hah. die.

There's band from 930-500 tomorrow. They said dinner in school might be possible. Howsoever, I won't be staying as I'll be flying off to work. *zooms*1 year of not band-ing after like band-ing since primary school feels really weird. It was brass band in primary school and marching band in secondary school. In primary school, entered SYF 1999? can't remember, but I was primary 5 then. and receive gold. :D In secondary school, entered SYF2004 for display band. and receive a mere silver. ok ok, I'm kinda actioning right now. heck.

But the overall of the story is, I miss sweating tons of sweat, holding back pain, tan under the scorching sun, practice even though it's raining, encouraging each other, the feeling of fainting, the "I-wanna-kill-you" mood (esp the drum major), running of notes, blasting of intruments & lastly, the BOND.sighh. not a big deal anyways. =\

Not band-ing makes me feel like as if something is missing. =\ so yup, I joined. but but.. ok, I need to plan my time properly. help anyone?

I need to plan my time properly! ahhh. hohoho. die. help help! tolong tolong! *red lights*

whatsoever, hope life been good for you !

speak soon.

hey.

thanks for those who were there and really cared. Forever greatful. (:

off to revising some stuff right now. I'm lost during lectures & tutorials and so, I need to buck up.

speak soon.

hey.

my lessons ended at like 10.30am when it supposed to last until like 12? hah. cool eh. slacked! so now in the atrium waiting for her er & azizah to go town. atrium is like still filled with CCA-s booth instead of those "normal brooding studious" ambience. Saw norman going down the stairs and talked abit. like "ehh your IS what time?" "hah! I finished already !"

anyways, slept at 2am plus yesterday and so today almost couldn't wake up. But hey, I managed to wake up and prepapred everything for my sis to go to school. goo me!! (:

back to the topic, went to school thinking I was going to be late. Instead I reached at 7.40am and slowly strolled to block 56. Oh ya, I bumped into Kenneth in 184 bus. hah. actually i dao first, cause didn't know what to say. I was siting while he was standing as 184 was damn packed. When I was about to alight, I have to walked pass him and so, I tapped on his shoulder and said "Kenneth" and just wave. and yup, He's taller than me. hah!

I slowly strolled to block 56 thinking that Television Beyond Entertainment is gonna be like, I'm gonna be alone? I was the 2nd person to reach. slowly, one by one people starts coming in and hey, Nurul from tennis is in my class! haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. then alot of people were late. Made new friends during that module. There's like 5 girls, me, nurul, jingjing and hidayah(sp?) whois like from Tanjong Katong Sec and she was from the band too! haaaaaaaaaaaaa.

she: you last time from which sec school?
me: *playing lappy* West Spring..
she: west spring ? what cca??
me:*looks up* military band.
she:I was from Military Band also! from TK.
me: o..m...g i was just watching TK's marching band performance for the SYF last night. 0.0
she: why your band uniform almost the same as TK's ?
me: haaaaaaaaaaaa... dont know.
so dot dot dot, we went to both the same year of competition. like erm, 2004. She told me that she came late for the competition and went towards WSSS band thinking its TK, then she when she reached there (as in the place where wsss gathered near the national stadium) she said she see all the people and knew nothing of them. and so, she left! hahahaha. how weird ehh, meeting people whom you thought you dont know but years later, strangers will become friends.

and oh, the 'horse' or azizah would call it 'kuda' was from my primary school. and now we're like in the same class! Oh My God.

then,then.. for Television Beyond Entertainment, we watched I Not Stupid, Sex & The City and another two which I forgot the title. we watched clips on it. The longest was like 30 minutes and the room was like freaking cold. then talked about the taboo in media world of Singapore. sex..violence..and yeah what nots.

anyways, LOOK-ALIKE is in my IS class! hah. how odd! and Mr Clement asked us to bring the latest issue of 8-days next week but LOOK-ALIKE wants to bring FHM US version instead.

and as an announcement, wednesday my lesson will be at 9-12 and not 8-12. caused Mr Clement thinks we're not that of a morning person! wooooo.

school is getting fun. (:

hopes all good readers.

speak soon.

hey.

I have no idea why but I decided to go on a time travel on faizah’s blog. As I read some of her entries, the past started to be soo real that I was actually thinking, why must everything come to an end?

Faizah’s blog is seriously like a history book.

...........

credit to faizah:

Saturday, July 09, 2005
Heyx! Guess what! I went to watch Fantastic 4! Whee-Hee.. Its so fun. I mean, of course arx. Its a Girls Day out for me and my precious GirlFriends.. ;)
To Jan Marie, NoorHashilah and Siti Zuhailah: Thanx for that wonderful time watching Fantastic 4. ;)
To NoorHashilah : Maybe we should cycle more. **Crash!!! ;)
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Siti, did u just got a "smack" from Hashilah for kicking a soccer ball at her?

Saturday, February 19, 2005
harlowx .. juX got home .. go to school to do spring cleaning .. hahax .. only Me , Lala , Poooox , and D tSar came .. hahax .. had so much fun cleaning up the class .. laugh here and there .. hahax .. we talk about everything under the sun ..
plan about the class T .. gosh ! cant decide .. so many disagreements .. wanna ask the class on monday .. gosh ! they are damn hard to please .. HELP !!

Monday, June 27, 2005
Change of time-table with effect from today. Sheez! And guess what. PE during 1st period. Gosh! Can you imagine that? Well, 4A didn't exactly have PE lar today. We just sit in class and joke around in our own groups. Hahx! We are BIG actors. And I really mean it. When some teacher take a peep into our class, we'll look down at our open books and pretend to be studying. But actual fact, we're actually faking it. Hehx! Of course lar. 4A mah. We are One of a kind. ;)

Wednesday, July 27, 2005
After school, ME, Hashilah, Dhi, CT and Jan saved a cat. We spent around 40 mins just to get the cat out. Actually, its all thanx to The Bravest, Most Wonderful, Little Miss Kitty, Siti Zuhailah. If I weren't for her patience to endure the smelly of the PEE of those kittens. 2 white kittens are super fierce sia. They did the "grrr" effect (in a kitten way). Super annoying. Prays hard that Hashilah's mom allow her to keep the kitten. In fact, 2 guys around there helped us in catching the kitten when it tried to run away.

Friday, July 22, 2005Me and Hashilah had planned to cycle to school tomorrow. Guy, watch out, man! The girls are conquering the roads! Hehex! I'm only joking. I hope that Dhiya will also cycle with us. Surely we're going to have loads of fun, yeh? Too bad Siti doesn't have bike, if not, the Angels are soaring the ROADS! Hehex! CRAP!

Wednesday, July 13, 2005
4A has to visit the CNB for some Learning Journey thing. The class is totally chaotic without Ms Wee around sia. Shucks! OXJ received scolding from the officer cause he was making so much noise. I thought its going to be boring, but actually, its kinda fun. He told us some funny stuffs while Xplaining the dangers of drugs(of course).
In the bus home, my GirlFriends are really quiet. Dhi slept in the bus, Azizah, Dawina and Pooja talked occasionally. Hashilah and Jan were busy chatting. While me and Siti just enjoy the musics from our MP3.

Saturday, August 27, 2005
I actually went for History class today.
Lol!
Fortunately, Mr Santokh was punctual.
First time sia.
Me and Hashilah cycled to school.

Thursday, August 11, 2005
Had my O' Level English Language Oral this afternoon. I had never felt so nervous for my English Oral before. This is the first time. Lol! Like most people say, "There's always a first t ime to everyhing."
I was in the second group. While waiting for my turn, I just read through the yearly oral topics that was given by Mrs Ang. It didn't make me feel better, in fact, I was more nervous than usual. Shucks!
Me, Stella and Lala were acting super crazy. We played with the bluetacks and doing "Kallang Waves". We were laughing like crazy (but in a quiet way).
Really cool.

...........
-Yes, I had fun during the movie outing.
-Yes, we should have cycled more!
-hahahaha! And yes ! I remembered Faizah crashing into some bushes while cycling.
-The spring cleaning which I seriously must thank those who helped out, if not I’ll have to just do everything alone. I remembered.(:
-Did I smack siti for kicking the soccer ball at me? I can’t remember. I think I did. HAH!
-The class tshirt turned out just great!
-How united were we as a class?
-We saved some cats/kittens and get dirty in school uniform!
-I miss Jan now, it’s been long since I actually really sat down and talk with her.
-Hahaha! Imagine the crazy us goofing around while waiting for our turn to sit for the English O Levels Oral. Kallang waves!!

But hey, I’ll have to moving on! (:

hey!

damn sian.

last 2-hours of lecture before I can finally call it a day.

and edmundlim just pangseh (left) me just like that ! He couldnt come to school..idiot! haha. It's okay edmund, I'll remember this for life. (:
anyways, now siting outside with the class waiting for the lecture room to be open. speaking of which, I'll be seeing those in B134 soon. wooo.

had a terror lecturer for TP. how nice.

on the good side, I'll be having school from 8 to 12 tomorrow! yes! going home soo early after like 2 days of 8/9am-5pm. wooo go me!

I'll slowly do things right from now on.hah. & maybe I'll make a list so that I can slowly start doing things and just not trying to run away from it. I'm new and ready to go. I'm off to clean/tidy up my home when I reach home.

speak soon.

If I could,
I would tell her,
Not to be afraid,
The pain that's she feeling,
The sense of loneliness will fade.

super messed up me.
dammit all these challenges.
I miss the old me.
Someday I will understand
In God's whole plan
And what he's done to me

I'll take the time to slowly clean up everything. I'll face it. I'll be a stronger person by then. I'll make it through.



shilah™ - says:
azizah.. why is this year just too harsh on me ?
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
god is testing ur patience..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
and i'm sure u can hang on there..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
liku-liku kehidupan.. there's ups and downs..
shilah™ - says:
im losing everyone
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
u'r enot losing anyone yet..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
we're still with u..!
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
no worries..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
we're not going to leave u alone by urself..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
we can meet often during breaks and after school..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
it's part of life..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
stay strong..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
u can do it..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
don't think too much.. ur mum will be back after she had relaxed her mind..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
mum and dad sure had a tiff..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
so, now no worries okays..

I'll try to look at you and smile. I'll show you that I'm fine.

but I must say, I'm not good at acting. How to be fine when I'm not? I thought I would be okay after thinking to myself not to think of it,alighting 2 stops before my actual bus-stop and walk home slowly. Walking back 2 stops so that I'll have the peace to think through all those stuff/pain I've been going through. I'll be better by the time I reach home but hell no, I cried myself to sleep. Laying in my bed for 2 hours trying my best to sleep in between sobs. Watching funny videos only helped me by a few minute.yes,yes I laughed while watching a video of Lisa Kudrow from Friends. Yes,yes I typed the word "HAHA" on the msn conversation. But I can't run away that easily. Who was I trying to kid? The pain still stays.

It's been long since I last cried.It's embarrassing to cry shilah..

Hope school can help me in a way or two to help me stop thinking about all these stuff. I'll be fine but it takes time.

afterall,

i've lost.

hey.

too many sleepless night kills you.

-I didn't realise that buying presents is such a hard-task.
-Not enough sleep = stoning.
-I'm not smiling enough.
-I'm tired of wondering.
-I'm indecisive.
-Too many thoughts at once.
-Losing concentration.
-Losing my grip on everything.
-Need to speak more of my thoughts rather than just keep it to myself.
-Don't know how to put my words together.
-Mix feelings about the new semester/people/friends/promises.
-I've made/lose some friends.
-Not doing things that I'm supposed to do ages ago.
-I'm being stupid.
.
.
-I should just give in.
-Something is just missing.
-I'm tired of looking & finding.
-Should just let go.
-I'm human afterall, I make mistakes.
-Saying 'sorry' is really that difficult?
-"on" & "off" switch of emo-ness.
-Have I hurt you in anyway?

I really need to go back to ngeeann by tomorrow or else, the long queue is the only fricking choice. by hook or by crook, I'll have to go tomorrow. and off I'll go for work.

yup.

where did my happy bubble go to? where's everyone? =\

& everything coming to an end. =(


there's gotta be more to life.

hey!

have no idea what to blog about today. Oh, I signed a pact! Iza & Jan came to visit my workplace today! (smiles) bloody Iza has to give away my secret ! Meeting azizah & herer to go to ngeeann to buy notes for the coming Monday! (=

school starting! Hope it'll be alright!

speak soon.

hey.

1A3 bbq was pure fun. But I guess I was more hyper at night? The going home part where I crap like nobody's business ? hah.

*Took from Janet's blog as I was lazy to type*

Janet : norman, do you know how to drive?
Norman : (laughs)me?
Janet: i think it fated that you have to drive us home. It's the second time we saw an empty cab
Shilah : ya if anything happens, I will inform azizah to let her pass msg to my parents saying i love them.
Janet : ya me too..
Shilah : my will … my savings … my blog address..my everything ..
***
shilah : omg. How? I don't wan mignight charge.
miie : oh ya. how? how many hours i need to stand just to earn back?
shilah : …… -.-"***
finally we got a cab. den the cab drive into some ulu place. after that ulu place is geylang. ***
shilah : eh! geylang ler. one guy and two gurls.
miie : crazy girl (laughs)
norman : i think you are too hungry.***
*thanks Janet*

hahahahahaha. I have no idea why but I'm laughing like some idiot reading my own conversations. and I'm glad the Janet actually remembered 90% of the conversations. I still feel damn bad about making Janet's fall. =\ sorry eh?

But seriously, we have to walk such long distances to find a bloody cab home! Imagine a group of people racing against time to find a cab as soon as possible so as to not get charge of midnight charge. hah. and all the crapness on the go ! (:

speak soon.

hey.

I've lost the urge to blog nowadays. I guess blogging sometimes need the inertia to start, once it starts, I can't stop. Once I stopped blogging, I won't be blogging for like ages. crapp.

I'm not working today. Surprisingly there this feeling of awkwardness. Like "oh, I really don't have to work today!" those kind of feeling. hmm. so when out with mum to shop for tomorrow's class outing at ecp. I have no idea how to go to ecp for your information! hah. I'm bound to get lost tomorrow. my sense of direction is like crap? errr.. ya. I can even get lost in school campus. heh.

I've been stoning alot these few days. Like just stare into space and my brain will switch into"off" mode and be obvilious to the others/surroundings around me & god knows what I was actually thinking. =\ maybe I have alot of things to think through but it's just that I don't know where to start. kinda weird but true.

and I'm having this freaking headache which is killing me. ughhh. feeling under the weather i guess. It's a good thing I'm not working today. thank god for that. everything will be better by tomorrow. no worries.

will be posting more pictures in the next post.pictures send in from shiqi and elise.Well, if I'm not too busy/tired/shag that is.

know where to find me and how to find me when you need me.

speak soon.


where was my head?
where was my heart?
now i cry alone in the dark.

hey.

havent been updating much. Sorry about that.

Janet and Yishan came to visit me while I'm working. had dinner with them after like soo long of not meeting. yeahh..and I asked for 1-hour break. so yup. janet! where's the picture? I wanna see. hah.

worked for like 38 hours this week? & 33 hours for the next?

thursday..the day I've been looking forward for. funness. and oh, somebody said my way of typing has a sad feeling to it. hahaha. weird. maybe I'm just a sad person i guess, or maybe not.
2 more weeks and school will start. I have yet to make myself mentally stable to face the new environment.and everything (mostly) will come to an end.

too tired to update much.

will update when I feel like it. gahhhhhhhh. =(



shilah™- says:
and ohh.. u dont wanna visit tomorrow ?
shilah™- says:
the new girl coming in
//shiqi says:
nah
//shiqi says:
go down to town for nothing

*dies*

she's falling behind.