spite

alright humans, please listen to me.

stop using christmas/santa to blackmail me into being good cause really, i'll bring the matter into my dreams. i swear. few days back, i dreamt someone bought a whole pack of candycanes in some shop & left me with none to buy.imagine how depressing =\ & now, i just woke up from a whole 'nightmare' that i grew pointed ears. yes yes, stop using christmas to blackmail me into being good. i can't imagine what's the next thing gonna be. getting squash by santa's sleigh? most likely, omg ):

there will be some illegal gathering going on at marina square 530pm outside macs. 4A2005 gang will be there.yes yes, please come if you're included. yes yes, you. please bring all update list you have that has been going on with your life for the past 2years cause shilah wants to know. yay!

somebody please, can anyone make it for overnight study at the airport? when when when, just tell me then i'll be there. I NEED HELP. majorly need SAVE OUR SOUL. ah yes, i think phillip really blacklisted me for WFT. wtheck, this is war. if you guys have yet to realise my papers are on the dates stated on the right on the upcoming events.

i was a victim by huichi's experiment today. they measured my hand & my leg in the toilet! please say 'omg' in unison now. and they used ruler! i felt soo.... used. they dragged me to the toilet. like really.. omg. dont anyhow touch & see. *uses laptop to protect self*

and to janet neo the gossip monger, i officially declare war against you.



ohh yes yes, i need a haircut really soon & i so hope my circuit can work tomorrow.

moreeee

i swear upon myself, god & santa that i wasn't copying her work.
Both of us has different questions for the mini project. shilah doesn't tell lies, really. anyways, i can imagine dune & the rest being at changi airport mugging & looking at stewardess while i have to drag my butt down to school. nevermind nevermind, life is fair.

did some paperwork for events which barely took an hour. Yishan, Azizah & me went to Lot1 to eat and hang around. After which i start being panicky for the mini project cause incase i have no idea on how to do at home, i will have no one to help me with it! even hantu also dont have. At least there's yishan just now so yup, went to library and did some.

actually, it's more a blind man leading a blind man situation since we're both noobs
& that i'm the greater noob. blahhh!


ehem

actually we were trying to take picture like joyce (yishan's friend)
but cannot make it. yishan's face look damn square over here.

we're talking about how one of our teachers being unreasonable.
really super unreasonable.

mind that we were not gossiping, we're not gossip mongers like janet!
a real life specimen of gossip monger :D

other than that, i felt super outofplace taking the LRT after like soo long and i starting to hate yishan that yellow banana. i dont care, i'm gonna go shanghai & carry out a marriage for him with a hot chick over there.

okok, gotta figure out how to invert a circuit!
hope life been good.

promise

rest in peace, to the 5 dragonboaters.

i swear i better strike lottery or something, cause i'm broke
but thats impossible cause i don't even play lottery at all, shit. i need to buy tons of stuff.

other than that, i have no idea why i'm feeling soo dead tired.
it's only 9pm and i feel like sleeping already, this is bad since i have yet to mug,
aiyahh whack. i need life! life is badly needed by shilah right now.

i want to watch Enchanted since comments are saying it's nice.
come on come on, somebody anybody anyone just come & watch with me.
you you you you you?


finally found my way to lead me down.

anti-shilah

i swear by the time i graduate from ngeeann, i would have more enemies rather than friends. hahah, janet being my greatest enemy & yishan being the runnerup. not bad at all. still got more to go! hows your anti-shilah campaign going on people? i'm looking forward (= just because i suan-ed too much! shit, cant stop. it just got worse! gahhhhhh.

& janet, stop gossiping eh! not good for your well-being too cause somebody might just die on the way while gossiping. i can sense people running after you in time to come. so better train running now or else, i can't help you! see i'm nice enough to warn you. (=

bytheway yishan, thanks for staying in school with me till like 745 while waiting for my dad to fetch me. since you're nice and i own you one, i will stop eating oreos for 1-week! both big&small oreos. okok friend ?

shit, i think my post has just earned me a few more good enemies now. just like how janet thinks she has leukemia cause she bruise like a peach, i can imagine people growing tall and just strangle me to death.

okok sleep now since i have school from 10-6pm tomorrow.

I'M NOT COMPLAINING.

ohmygoodness! ET fingers.

life is wild: CALVIN-ised

and i would like to thank gloria for letting me know bout this:



ogle out your eyes at 3:59! isit just me or does he really sound different?
as in sexier... wooooooo

shit, monday is here!

be good.

ok scary, common test timetable is still not out yet.
& revision should start now. scary. fast fast.

anyways, azizah just told something interesting regarding our I&E.
yay! another great way to publicise our event. haha! wooop!
seriously hope all goes well. i'm looking forward to it though,
plus i won't be going home after the event since i have to go to ubin.
yayyy. should be fun!

track/running tomorrow & errr.. work later.

ehem

wednesday scenario 1

girl: hey what 2nd language did you take for O's ?
me: errr, malay? isin't that obvious?
girl: ohh okk
me: why?
girl: just asking. *continue doing LED*
me: why ? soo weird.
girl: nothing, just that you don't look like a malay.
me: HAHAHA! *shouts for janet*

wednesday scenario 2

girl1, girl2, girl3

girl1, girl2, girl3: hey, which sec sch you're from?
me: west spring ... err in bukit panjang.
girl1: yaa i know, i stay at bukit panjang.
me: ohh then why go sec sch till newton? far sia
girl1: hahahah dont know? anyway i asked caused you look familiar.
me: huh? but i don't know you do i?
girl1: dont know but you look familiar.
me: omg. you're stalking me!

wednesday scenario 3

me: hey are you always this happy?
her: why? no lahh
me: but i always see you smiling & laughing.
him: then you leh? "are you always this emo?"
me: i'm not laaaa
him interrupting the convo: no lehh, you look like one.

like omg wednesday seriously but now then i have the mood to blog bout it.
ok shall stop ss-ing. hahha & siqi was really funny during the redcamp. she was being
sabo-ed. damn funny bet janet will laugh out loud again when she think bout it.

where it fits?

greenridge purple eagle's mascot!

didn't blog yesterday cause i dont feel like it. errrr oh yeah, went home straight after school today & didn't meet up the rest for lunch. cause i've already had plans. going out lunch with mum and sis. it's better since i don't have to pay a single cents for food.
omg, cheapskate i know. anyways, ate at naked fish. i 'intro' to mum!

and errr, went to all the way to town to have some 'meeting.'
mostly it's about the opening of the second kiosk around next year feb yo!

oh yesss, my circuit for pdpr didn't work today. in fact, i think only 2 worked out of like the whole class? omg & like what the heck. the 4 of us were very unhappy today.
me & simone especially. then we started to eat sweet/chuppachups in class.

imagine all 4 siting in a row with a stick in their mouth.
ok lah then teacher commented:

he: 4 of you, next time buy for everybody
me: cher, i got extra! you want ?
he: i'm not selfish, next time for everybody.
huichi: wth! indirectly saying we're selfish.

but anyways, he still cool & nice! :D


we'll kill you, really.

headstrong

how many idiots do you need to destroy a person's life ?
HAHA. for today, bloody 1.

screw you, i don't even know/takenoticeof/knowofyourexistence but yet you act like as if
you know me damn fucking well. sorry but you just got into my badass list. congrats retard.

and now what? like as if i have yet to get enough shits for today.
thanks for ruining my happy bubble that i've got from the red camp.

in a bag full of pun

a prodigal son can't undo what he's done
a figurehead of capitol crime
with a light shining down as you fall to your knees
to repent would be nothing but lies

i just realised that almost half of my dec has been 'booked' by stuff.
ahhhhh, shit. and dec have yet to arrive. goodness
& congrats to those sat for their last A's paper today. enjoy man!
shit, i shall start revising tomorrow. promise!

btw i spent like ... $20 + $17 +$5 +$7 = $49 in school today.
omg i'm like declared bankrupt as of today.
& there's like photos of me in block 8 & midac! omg.
midac is for project nutz (still ok) while block 8 from langkawi's.

i swear i would tear down block 8's photo. really super omgly unglam.

alright then, red camp tomorrow!

light emitting diode

headphones stays on my head

but azizah's headphones doesnt!

& she's in deep shit now.

janet, can you please stop promoting?
shit i'm having a throbbing headache.


let's start mugging soon man.

nutz enough to join project nutz!

actually, i'm too lazy to type down too much.
plus, it's been a looooooooong time since i entered a race!
like sec 4 ? omg.



the runners waiting for prizegiving.
it's like: intersch (sec sch: cedargirls, acs, jurongsec etc.), interclub, intercca & all.
depends on categories.

ECE-microE



all the unglam pictures. i was saying, "ehh i need to shower!"
&my hair was awfully disgusting after the run.

i did warn her beforehand

eh not bad, i have a ghost for a friend

after a good shower and my hair in place.

nothing beats mcdelivery to school.

"i love your smile huichi, it's soo natural" -dune


hungry ghost festival on land

think i slowed down tremendously on the two upslopes.
like damn steep please, will take pics of it soon. gahhhh!

anyways, thanks to those who supported. and yup, the seniors were great
to push us to the max during the run. it's like really woah feeling even though we
barely know each other. and one of them even massage my leg after the race!

i kinda like the feeling of people shouting:
"gooo shilah gooo, abit more only."
"come on you can do it shilah, last run."
"come on shilah, im just beside you"
"goo! give it all, last lap!" -some random teacher

did i tell you my PDPR teacher (the langkawi one) ran too?
errr, my DEL teacher too. damn fit lehh. they won btw.


okok, i need to make myself sit and do WFT lab report now.
be nice shilah, be nice now.

in my next life

(click to enlarge & see some of our hantu faces.)



i seriously would love to blog about the Project Nutz but,
too shag to continue. tomorrow k, promise.

monday, RED CAMP helpers training yo.

underclass heroes

think i'm gonna die now. project nutz tomorrow and we have to run around the campus
actually 1.2km only but somehow when i see the route, it seems so much more. i sense something fishy. con! first runner will run at 5pm. and thankfully, i'm the second runner. come to think of it, the positions doesn't matter anyway.here i am, typing these down instead of training.

i really really want to go and train at the nearest park. i said train! not to see people makeout or anything, come on i'm not that disgusting. but i'm pretty much scared of the dark. plus, there's like some funeral going on at the void-deck. among all days... to die

ok, i so hope my rarely training of running after 184 will help me tomorrow.
don't you just dare doubt it. run run run, 1.2 1.2 only!

look ugly in here, but i don't care.
and yes, that weird figure standing there is my dad.

come to think of it, i'm pretty much scared of everything huh?
VEGGIES esp. Those who made me eat beansprouts on that very fateful day,
is seriously equivalent to hitler's ways of torture. you know who you are...

*coughs, sneeze & points at you*

train today, marksmen tomorrow

the field trip to tekong was alright, even bus journey to SAF ferry terminal (in changi)
doesn't seem to be as long/horrendous like most of us thought so.
really, i don't mind staying in tekong but not for army whatsoever. HAHA

& somehow, the field trip seem abit langkawi-ish. im the founder of that word
blah blah blah army talks and what nots. but the thing was that i'm like super hungry
during the trip and there's NYP & TP over there too.

toured around tekong BMTC i've came to say the beds there seemingly short.
and errrr, oh ya! played with the virtual shooting of M16 back in tekong. hahahaha.

i swear i won't look at anymore hot guys
i swear i won't look at anymore hot guys
*continues chant*

ok really, i swear i won't look anymore.
serious serious. :D

shhhhhhhhhhhhhh! ok back to errr.. tutorial.
& since when familiar places become soo distant?

one and a time

i was soo engrossed doing something else that,
i actually forgot about the poster & tshirt design!
yes yes, damn.

& still, tekong tomorrow. with dresscode being long pants.
from 12-6pm.
oh yes. damn.

got more stuff to do but i guess i forgot what.
ok nuff said, hope life been good.

split seconds

it's been ages since i had my last headache
like serious, & today was unbearable.
school was alright, except that one of my 7-segment didn't work
& by that time i seriously pushed everything to wenghua to help me check.
she's niceeee. :D and not forgetting huichi who helped me to put components in!

thanks guys!
alright, that's school rant.

guess what, after that i straight went home without waiting for the rest.
and i didnt go for the dinner vince asked me and some others to go.
i i know i wont feel 'right' being there, and told naz the whole situation.
however, thanks vince and naz for the invitation. Hope you guys had fun.

ok shit, now i feel bad.


shilah's retard mode ps. super long photo

opposite

when you try your best but you don't succeed
when you get what you want but not what you need
when you feel so tired but you can't sleep
you are stuck in reverse.

go back.

let's go back
back to the very beginning,
back to when the earth, the sun & the stars are all aligned.

then only maybe i can find the right words to say.
do you know what it feels like?

& i still can't find the reason why we lot have to go to tekong
and see people having BMT. zzzzzz, can i report sick?

i hope huichi remember that on monday we're gonna have training for project nutz.
since someone sabo-ed me for that stupid running/relay/track thing.

in this lifetime, do you know why?

it's not like everyday you just feel like listening to acoustic songs
& just forget how life has been for you so far.

i realised that i tend to talk/crap/shout alot, but 'me' talk rarely exist.
it'll will be avoided somehow each time. i like it that way but people can always try.

i think i'm one of the worse person you could ever find in finding words to describe things.
plus, when people say "huh?! again? what?" i'll thought that i've said something wrong or bad
& thus will not repeat what i've just said. yesssssss. might be tall but i'm rather short on confidence & everything.

& people can bring me down easily cause i can get affected by anything.
even though it doesn't relate to me.

i'm very much a vulnerable idiot.

bored

school just ended 2 hours ago & i'm here in the school library
using their desktop and oversized keyboards which im not used to inversely making me look like some retard who doesn't know how to type.

& it's a great environment to be in cause janet is also stalking secretly in friendster!
which, makes me her partner in crime. (and she just did something major against me)

-editted-

anyways, after janet went for her lessons siqi, simone and their friend came and
BOO! me from the back. like damn pain la & not shocked. tsk! then went to the games room to play some weird games. &weird conversations

the moment we sat on a table:
simone: "ARGHHHH!"
siqi: "huh?"
simone: "ARGHHH!"
me: 0.0
simone: "that game!! ARGHHHH! lets try something new."
me: "HAHAHAHAHHA."
the game was super lame then we changed to Taboo.
thus is was me&simone VS. siqi&their friend (i forgot his name, omg)
the first round:
him: "another word for 'ass'"
me: "butt"
siqi: "something"
him: "another word for 'ass'"
simone: "buttocks.. butt...etc..." (she said alot)
me: "omg.. butt laahhh!"
him: "nooo.. LOWER!"
me&simone suddenly shutup & looked at each other...& laughs
me: "ehhh! i cannot think already, start to think dirty already!"
anyways, the answer for that was: BOTTOM!
second round:
siqi: "underwear"
simone: "boxer!"
him: "girl wear one la"
siqi: "very thin"
him: "when people go for BBQ they use also!"
siqi: "HAHAHAHAHAH!"
me: "omgg..BBQ?!"the answer was :THONGS!

oh yess, thanks britney for making me free from any mental derangement.

learn your name

even though this might bruise you
let it burn, let it burn
you gotta let it burn

deep down you know it's best for yourself but you hate the thought.
you know that it's over, you know that it was through
just let it burn.


how many times do you have to lie to yourself, till everything is over?

& i've been dreaming of the latest psp slim.
hahahha in two months, just two months.

how?mycircuitcantwork!

something random but i saw this thing on the table! being the kaypoh i already am, i get to know that it's actually waterbabies. Something like it will grow in water then it will start to 'mate' by them joining each other and then little small ones will be produced and the cycle will repeat all over. kinda lame. child's play and where did all the good videogames go to? =\

School was considerably normal today! Beside the fact that i was being super irritating today. (quotes. Janet) cause i kept on saying stuff to her to make her damn zzzzzz. eg. FATTY BOMBOM!

ok lah, cause i was demoralised by the PDPR circuit cause my circuit didn't work as it should be. and i swear, it's a damn mean thing! soo despite being emo, i decided to make other people feel blahhh too. mean i know, but what the heck? we suffer together k! got MPI circuit for each of us to keep until next semester? dumped it in the locker asap cause it's so bulky!

ok this actually happened quite sometime ago, but i remember bout it only yesterday! it's actually a complain. My ears are always being plugged when i'm on the way home & i would say the volume i would be listening to would be 26. right, kay then i was waiting for the lift an uncle apparently said "hi!" to me but i didn't answer. then he waved and guess what he said?

"i've said hi to you & you didn't even bother to reply? Teenagers nowadays are so arrogant!"

hahahah, wth? like hello.. ok la never mind i let it pass. then yesterday i saw uncle and i bet he saw me but guess what he did? he looked away from me! hahahaha, oh man. petty ah. told my parents bout it and they were like "huh?" chill yo, look at your own daughter for goodness sake? who looks at people from top-to-bottom with that glaring eyes! oh & i've felt soo raped by that eyeball of hers please?

somehow it's my fault, i know but wassup with the stereotyping man?
get yourself a psp and chill at the nearest coffeeshop with a cup of kopi-o!

to those who knows: it's miss siti's father. my ex-geography teacher in lower sec,
who apparently stays as the same block as me. suay

whatsmynameagain?

yesterday was a great day, since my weekends started early.
by 1150am, i'm already out and ready for weekends. and know what! my circuit for pdpr
actually works! like phew. *tap on the back*

afterwhich me&huichi headed towards library cafe to eat our lunch,
i treated her hotdog while she treats me bubbletea! or isit the other way round? hahaha
thanks ya huichi (= simone joined us for awhile.




then me&huichi watched a movie called 'odd girl out' which turns out to be quite real,
if you have a supposedly bestfriend that tortures you indirectly like a flesh eating virus.
tortures indirectly as in, rumors, Instant messaging & all those crap. but somebody said
the show was abit bitchy! =\


what's my name again?

then i flew to SMU to meet the khoo!

spot the khooooooooo in this pic!

rotted around gelatissimo before going off for shopping. no lah, i didnt shop.
was on off mood yesterday. afterwhich i can't remember what happen already.
but i know i was damn tired after like laming/shopping/camwhoring around yesterday!

& i visited wenghua at work yo!

you're alright

results for overseas postings are already out today.
& somehow, i didn't feel disappointed. like the pain doesnt hurt that much?
hahahha, i was kinda surprised by the way i reacted after that.
maybe caused i'm already mentally prepared myself the moment i saw those people that wrote their name on the list? like aiyaa, can predict one la.
esp with my screwed sem 2.1 results but not blaming anyone though.
maybe i've been on top for a bit too while now.It feels good to just feel a dose of failure. somehow. =\

i've also realised that i've always looked forward to those overseas thingy like a escape
from every problems/connections that i have back at home. stupid, i know.
but things changed since the day i've made myself worked towards that.
family are back good at home, friends are indeed good. relationships with others around me have been smooth so far. and i wish things will stay that way. i really do.
i wish to enjoy them now. while it's still there, you see.

6-months? alot of things can happen. i can change & so can you.
soo, i rather enjoy with what i have now before all of us get too fucked up with workloads.
all these are kinda 'emo-wise'. in terms of 'living alone wise' & 'financial wise',
i realised it's far more scary.

take germany for example: they only give you 280Euro for allowance
& for accomodation itself we have to pay 200Euro for accomodation
so you're left with like 80Euro to survive. if that were to be me,
i'll call up my parents every single month to send me money man!
hahah no joke. i suck. talked about being independent huh?

then come again, it's now left with like local industrial attachment & project wise.
and again, the Local Attachment allowances are like errrr.. peanuts?
and there's no pay for overtime. & your grades are like soo soo dependent on the boss ok!
they have always said Project Wise is more for those aiming for Uni.
cause a hell lot of the percentage on it will go to your final project marks. ok so what now?
shit, i hate decision making.

i realised that half of you have no idea what i'm ranting right here, right now.

long story short, i'm ok!

:D

freaky, but i like it

i have always looked forward to afterschool hours!& since, we have like 2 hours of break before a meeting we decided to slack in the games room! ohh yeah, my first time since usually when i go there, it will be damn packed.




& oh yes, if you're wondering why we're playing this uno stacko thing seriously.
we actually had like a forfeit for those who failed. we're serious players please!
eg. doing online tutorials for others, doing tutorials for others & treat to bubbletea & hotdogs.

well, all i know is tomorrow's lunch is settled already. HAHA

after we were done with UNO stacko after like 6 rounds? we played Telepathy. this time siqi came to join us! hohoho. new game lahh, but kinda fun. test how well you & your partner can 'connect'. but i kept on cheating... shhhhh


& shit lahh! me & siqi lost. soo, have to treat them to bubbleteas =\ and also
i have to treat them to hotdogs each for losing in UNO stacko. tsk!

and finally, met up with the rest for the meeting at INNOspark. & this meeting is not the usual meeting caused we camwhore like alot. damn you dune.


i have a feeling that huichi gonna kill me tomorrow.


ohh yes, i forgot to give you my username & password for the online tutorials!
get it from me! lai-lai! but i did like almost all already? unfair.

AZIZAH! GET WELL SOON! (=
just so you know, you scared the hell out of yishan & me!

i saw him today! hahaha, omg & we talked a lil'.
ehh shit, school ends early tomorrow! mambo.. bo bo bo