you're alright

results for overseas postings are already out today.
& somehow, i didn't feel disappointed. like the pain doesnt hurt that much?
hahahha, i was kinda surprised by the way i reacted after that.
maybe caused i'm already mentally prepared myself the moment i saw those people that wrote their name on the list? like aiyaa, can predict one la.
esp with my screwed sem 2.1 results but not blaming anyone though.
maybe i've been on top for a bit too while now.It feels good to just feel a dose of failure. somehow. =\

i've also realised that i've always looked forward to those overseas thingy like a escape
from every problems/connections that i have back at home. stupid, i know.
but things changed since the day i've made myself worked towards that.
family are back good at home, friends are indeed good. relationships with others around me have been smooth so far. and i wish things will stay that way. i really do.
i wish to enjoy them now. while it's still there, you see.

6-months? alot of things can happen. i can change & so can you.
soo, i rather enjoy with what i have now before all of us get too fucked up with workloads.
all these are kinda 'emo-wise'. in terms of 'living alone wise' & 'financial wise',
i realised it's far more scary.

take germany for example: they only give you 280Euro for allowance
& for accomodation itself we have to pay 200Euro for accomodation
so you're left with like 80Euro to survive. if that were to be me,
i'll call up my parents every single month to send me money man!
hahah no joke. i suck. talked about being independent huh?

then come again, it's now left with like local industrial attachment & project wise.
and again, the Local Attachment allowances are like errrr.. peanuts?
and there's no pay for overtime. & your grades are like soo soo dependent on the boss ok!
they have always said Project Wise is more for those aiming for Uni.
cause a hell lot of the percentage on it will go to your final project marks. ok so what now?
shit, i hate decision making.

i realised that half of you have no idea what i'm ranting right here, right now.

long story short, i'm ok!

:D