nobody believes

dreams will just be dreams, right ?
dreams as in 'sleeping/napping' dreams and not those ambition dreams.
i have no idea why i was having such bad nightmares for these past few days

first, i dreamt that i jumped down from a high-rise building.
i woke up just before i reach the bottom, hard concrete surface.
after which i started to study for paper again,
scared and telling myself it's just a dream
( edmund lim banned me from taking naps now )

secondly, i dreamt just the night before my FOOP paper
that my parents threw me out of the house
nothing but just a loner me with nowhere to go.
i can even even remember how scared i felt,
even though it's just a dream.

to think about it again now, i've always wanted to live alone
i've always wanted to be free from all these parent's trap,
to be myself, leading my own life

it's like what've always wanted but i saw myself being
lost, desperate, scared & seriously nowhere to go

i guess that how we tend to work isin't it ?
if we have this, we'll want that & others.
if we have that & others, we'll want to have this.
if so, what really makes me happy?

what really makes you happy ?