weeks

i'm starting to hate my fav. books, my fav. songs
i'm starting to hate my fav. day, & my fav. time.
i'm starting to hate my fav. hangout & my fav hobbies
i'm starting to hate every little bit of everything.

really damn sick. this is not the right time to be sick. like seriously... the more i talk to those asses, the more fucked up i become. i don't even understand why some people can be damn ambitious & hardworking in like 1-semester difference? i don't understand why there's must be someone being sooo over-confident of taking away what i've always wanted? like dont rub it in. i know you're good, sick bastards.

been having weird dreams lately. like 1 today, i dreamt i was walking towards the sea drowning myself. the more dreams i told my mum, the more she'll say "then still want to do the SPI thingy?" *yeah, i told her!* my favourite songs are making me cry. my favourite day and time are making me stress. my favourite hangout & hobbies turned into more of a ... 'work' now.

need to find a way back myself. like what i really want. no more dillydally on life. did that once and look what happened? thus, i have to let go of one for now. maybe just for a few weeks before i've set the foundations of my liferoad journey. need to set my new foundations/surroundings in school first.

thus, it will be quite some time till i work again,
from next week onwards.
many thanks naz.