rat island

heard what ?

hahaha day was pretty fine today.
what else is fun when you're in school ?
but school went off pretty fast though.
surprisingly.

yup! tomorrow is friday and yay,
weekends coming nearer.
wooooo.

DEL practical kills me even thought life don't.
damn shitty! & i had headache from doing it alone.
was fucking pissed with everything.
decided to lighten things up so we had a little challenge.

faris & me were like competing each other on who can complete
the experiment first!
hahahha and ohh, luck was on my side
i completed before him !
better luck next time.



IC'S kills !

& yup, i got to think of something to do from 12-4.45 tomorrow.
school ends at 12 and i got to wait for the rest to end
cause we need to start doing on our powerpoint presentation.

this is bad.
give me something to do for 4 hours.

most probably i'll be walking around,
somewhere, sometime & somehow.

errrrr.

nothing but lies

have you ever chat to someone and suddenly you thought of life?
then thinking about life indirectly makes you cry.

i just thought that everything around me is soo wrong right now.
even the simplest thing in my life is wrong.
I don't want to do all these, yet I'm still doing it.
lying to myself is wrong.

Life seems fake in everyway.
You're retricted to stuff around you.
Law, money, studies & can't even do what you want.
it will be worse when you tied yourself up with someone.
someone who's suppose to care for you, be there for you in everyway.
contradicting isin't it ?

that's why i want to be alone for now.
we're taking different roads of life.
i'm kinda scared that if i were to change my life plan right now,
everything will not work & i'll lose both.
if that were to happen, it will be my greatest downfall.

what do i really want in life?
i'm already as far away from my dreams now,
i cant risk it any further.
i need to make my way back.

i'm afraid i'll lose everything i've ever fight for.

god, please make me better.
i don't like the way i am right now.
i've done myself wrong
like how i've done everyone wrong.

i'm afraid of myself.

ate

when i came back home just now,
saw mum doing laundry and so i decided to help!

While helping,
the clothes dryer was actually drying up some clothes &
it made some weird noises.
as in, machine noise! *boom, bang*
and i stopped in my tracks and looked at the dryer for a moment.

mum noticed this and she told me that when i was small,
i once cried when the clothes dryer started making noises
saying:

"mamaaaaaaa!! that thing is eating up my clothes!"

& oh, Junius is a great debate partner!

no artificial intelligence

Sometimes, I really wonder what makes us different from robots.
it’s like people don’t care what you’re going through,
the pain, the sadness, the worry and the beaten.

So what if you’re hurt?
So bloody hell what if you’re tired?
so freaking what if you're sad ?

That’s what robots do don’t they?
Monotonous, feeling-less, friend-less & not forgetting heartless.
They’re just some cold metal.

Even if you talk to them, they’ll just agree with you.
stuffs that you told them won’t leaked because
they didn't even listen in the first place.
How much it bites, they won’t feel a single thing.
They won’t feel the heartbreak because
they don’t even have a heart at all.

Unlike us humans,
We always feel the pain & we always wish for things.
We cry when it hurts & we scream when we’re mad.
We bottle up things so that people won’t pity you.

i have a heart.
i'm sick of expectations.
i'm sick of piling work.
i'm sick of all these.
i'm NOT a robot.

Use me as you will,
pull my strings just for a thrill.
Cause I know I’ll be ok,
though my skies are turning gray.

slacker

parents drove me to school this morning.
i was 30-mins super early today & so i suggested breakfast at canteen 1 with them!
hahahaha, super weird going around school campus with them.
but it was cool somehow.
:D

dad finally allow me to take up bike license!
but, i have to pay for it myself. he'll only be paying for driving.
what the hell ...
i wanna bikeee.

school was such a drag today.
everything passed soo slow!
managed to pay attention to DEL lecture.

meet up with the rest for lunch except that we didn't go for lunch today.
went to the library and slacked
i slept in the library lah! was super tired.

TP was alright since i paid attention too.
but somehow was quite emo after lunch and i decided not to go for em3a lecture.
I skipped em3a lecture to study em3a quiz tomorrow.
get it ?

i know nuts & my notes was half-ly blank!
soo gotta bother dhiya to borrow notes from her since she copied lots.
just came back from meeting her !
she saved my ass big time.


slacker!

boys armed with PSP, yishan armed with movies.

& ohhh, super glam pictures from work yesterday!

wahh, fierce!

edmund showing off his adam's apple.
or maybe not .. *runs*

hope all good!

study timeeeeeee.

rhymonia & save the earth day.

concert was great!

Met up with the group members earlier so finish up on the wikipage thingy.
i almost got grilled by azizah and janet due to some reason.
thanks for leaking my secrets ah someone.
i actually have to run around the atrium with my notebook.

went off for zihui concert shortly after that.
and did i tell you i didn't eat for the whole day until 10pm ?
i lasted on a small packet of chips, booster chocolate & 3 fishballs.
pathetic, i know.

after the concert straight went off for supper at bukit timah!
eugene was ordering soo much food!
some weird stuff like: plaster prata, tissue prata, paper prata & icecream prata!

hahahaha, and he actually treated us.
but we managed to force him to take 8 bucks from all of us!
2 bucks each from the girls.

separate on our way home and i took 184 home instead of cab.
cut down cost lah!

& shit, i dont think i can go gym tomorrow.
need to finish up on social psychology wikipages.
tsk, damn it.

working with twin tomorrow!
know how to reach me.


flowers just for you.

the crew rockin'

me, azizah, janet & eugene!

greeeen, save the earth day.

yishan, me & some freak sleeping at the back.

boooo!

icecream prata.

hahaha, and oh! taking this picture actually made myself look like a fool lah!

shilah: *holds camera phone* "one..."
yishan: *laughs uncontrollably"
shilah: "two.. three"
the rest: joins in laughing.
shilah: *blur*
the rest: *shouting* " the prata can smile ah!"
shilah: "ohh, ya hor!"
all: "HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"

how stupid can i get ?
& i swear yishan was laughing like mad!

ok, going off to finish up project.
i swear, projects one after another can make me go mad.

till then.

research's playacts

seriously, you'll never believe what we did on 4th July 2007.
as research playacts, we actually went around town wiping/polishing people's shoes.

well basically, we're testing out how people reacts against abnormality around their surroundings. it's like, something like you don't see everyday and whats's your immediate reaction towards them/ it.

what would you do when something out of the ordinary happens?

so if i were to wipe/polish your shoes,
what will you do?


ehhhh, what laugh-laugh?

scrub janet & weihao! scrubbbb!

so sir, what do you think of this?

laugh somemore shilah, laugh!

ermmmm, hi ?

mark, janet, weihao, azizah & ME!

i finally realised i have no green top.
oh my god, need to get my hands on some.
need to buy some new sneakers too.
shit, i'm broke.

GYMING SOON!
yay.