take an aim

We're going down, down in an earlier round (Take aim at myself)
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet (Take aim at myself)
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

life is wild

i saw a dragonfly fighting for its life when i stepped out of my house
it had a broken wing & was down on the ground
trying to fly, plus it was directly outside my doorstep

wanted to help, but don't know how to ?
sooo, i just walked passed it & now,
i kept on thinking about it's fate while studying
-.-

i can't concentrate now.
i didn't know i was that selfish, kill me

another interesting thing that happened was that,
while i was walking to the bus-stop
i have to walk through this bukit panjang nature reserve
& while walking, i saw a komodo dragon ?
or whatever huge lizard that was

soo, i was searching through my bag for my phone to snap a picture of it
to realise that my phone was in my pocket!
by the time i found my phone, the lizard was GONE !
this is one of the reason why i hate to wear cargo pants,
i'll put everything, everywhere in every pocket

yishan had a hard time finding me in the library
cause i gave the wrong info!
hahahha, level 3 instead of level 4!
sorry eh! & so we did something cute to find each other

phone!

shilah: "ehh i saw you, come up!"
yishan: " i'm coming down now.. level 3 right?"
shilah:"i don't know what level ehh! just come up, i saw you just now. you're at the stairs now?"
yishan: " come up as in go up?"
shilah:"yaa"
yishan:" okk, going up now"

*saw each other while still on phone*

reminded me of some game where this person has to give direction to a blind partner

kill meeee, i'm dead sleepy and don't feel like studying
bad bad bad

remember me this way

intensive started

ok, everything was alright and cheery
till "i-dont-know-what-happened" &
my mood went down dramatically.

which is seriously, quite sad ?

or maybe it's just me thinking too much again
like i always do.

the more i think about life,
the worse it gets



this video cracks me up ! retarded FRIENDS!

so say goodbye now

blame it on me

i understand that there are some problems
& I am not too blind to know
all the pain you kept inside you
even though you might not show
if I can apologize for being wrong
then it’s just a shame on me

i’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

even though the blame’s on you
i’ll take that blame from you

you can put the blame on me
'said you can put the blame on me
you can put the blame on me

i'm sorry that it turns out this way

there's a stranger in my life

& so, exams week start from this moment
scared, no ?
worried, no ?

i guess there's something wrong with me

i need studygroup eh,
there's still some blanks in my notes
oh shit.

work today was alright, yup!

eunice with her new shades!

big eyes

small eyes or no eyes at all

totally whatever-ish

hope life life been good

nobody believes

dreams will just be dreams, right ?
dreams as in 'sleeping/napping' dreams and not those ambition dreams.
i have no idea why i was having such bad nightmares for these past few days

first, i dreamt that i jumped down from a high-rise building.
i woke up just before i reach the bottom, hard concrete surface.
after which i started to study for paper again,
scared and telling myself it's just a dream
( edmund lim banned me from taking naps now )

secondly, i dreamt just the night before my FOOP paper
that my parents threw me out of the house
nothing but just a loner me with nowhere to go.
i can even even remember how scared i felt,
even though it's just a dream.

to think about it again now, i've always wanted to live alone
i've always wanted to be free from all these parent's trap,
to be myself, leading my own life

it's like what've always wanted but i saw myself being
lost, desperate, scared & seriously nowhere to go

i guess that how we tend to work isin't it ?
if we have this, we'll want that & others.
if we have that & others, we'll want to have this.
if so, what really makes me happy?

what really makes you happy ?

unlike any other

unlike any other National Day,
i have to spend it this year
by mugging for papers.
-.-

people are wearing red & white,
while i'm wearing black.
i'm dead jealous

& the worst thing is that i don't get what the hell
i'm trying to study is about.
bloody hell

string [] strNoorhashilah = new life [0];

i need a new life.
foop is like hell & it's this friday!

other papers are according to the following dates:
& i can't believe i was actually staring at the dates
when i'm suppose to be going woo-ha on singapore's national day!

after all these dates, will be LANGKAWI
nothing but just the breeze, the sea & friends!
woop!

*dreams*