soo much better than began

i believe i'm the same
i get caried away
it's alright, i'm ok
i'm relieved i'm relaxed
i'll get over it yet.

the probability of me being able to wake up at 9am, seems super low.
it's 3.09am now & i've yet to sleep! oh well.

it's kinda good to know that,
you had everything once then some downfall where you lost everything
then try to build up your life again from whatever is left.
but sure enough, the pain of losing everything from your life hurts like hell.

i've always wondered which hurts more:
losing everything or,
have nothing at all.

but i only know, losing everything i once had was bad enough.
i don't want to go back there again.we're still trying to recover from it.
it's not a small sum.