why is life like this

please, tell me what to do to lighten up my load.
i have no fucking idea which hurts more.
i guess life might be peculiar at first glance, but thats just the enhance.
i'll be able to end all the pain, one day when the curtains fall.
one after another.

phy says:
u want to talk about it?
phy says:
I KNOW! we can play tic tac toe to destress
phy says:
or we can bitch about those virtual uno players
phy says:
or we can go to the bermuda triangle
phy says:
with our magnificient ship
phy says:
we can call it the tic tac toe ship
phy says:
or do you want purple pearl.
phy says:
or bubble tea pearls?!
phy says:
i'm here if you wanna talk okay:]
phy says:
or if u want to ignore the problem and pretend it doesn't exist i can pretend with you
i'm good at playing pretend

many thanks & gahhh, work later, tomorrow & the day after.