Just woke up from a short nap.
I have no idea why I'm like soo tired these few days,
luckily there's no band to worry about anymore.
I didn't regret a single thing!
In fact, I felt soo much better.

When to gym with Faizah & Siti.
Had a great work-out with them.
Been long since I've ever exercise and do those what-nots.
hahahahaha, yay!
Will look forward to next week too!

The gym tuned to 98.7fm with soo many nice songs.
hahahaha, but Siti didn't hear much since the only thing she heard
was the running threadmills sounds. 0.0
Me and faizah were like "eh nice song" like x34354594385943 times.
hahahahahha.
Siti is very enthu.

Was running the threadmill when they played a long-time-never-hear song;
'Far Away-Nickleback'
wow.
(:

Went to shower after enough gym-ing.
Off to Lot 1, for lunch.
hahahahah visited Janet at her work-place 3 times in a row.
& she knew what I was going to have for lunch!

Went of to town solo to visit workplace.
hahahahah since Siti has her MT A-level paper tomorrow
while Faizah has alot of projects to do.

Helped out till 6pm since Alison is not feeling well.
hahahahaha, all the cool people working today/tonight.
Shiqi, Naz, Nas, Rachel,Alison & Cloud too.
so fun.

Went home by taking 700A and saw my mum's old friend.
which I suckily hate.
hahahha she said "hi" then I just waved
and dao-ed her the whole journey,
till Bukit Panjang Interchange!

Gonna try and study now.
btw, I saw Zul on the way to town today!

"SELFISH, FOOLISH, STUPID & IRRESPONSIBLE"

Those words kept on ringing in my head for the whole day.
the whole time, every moment, every second;
during lessons, lab & not forgetting work!

Thanks Janet,Azizah, Yishan and many others.
Thanks Edmund Lim for watching me cry in the library.
Thanks Yuzhen for the hug.
Thanks Zaid & Naz for saying it's alright.

yup, I'm selfish/foolish/stupid/irresponsible for BACKING out the concert
& leave alot of troubles for others.
I let you down & broken your trust.
Bitch about me, I don't mind.
cause I know I'm the at at fault.
bloody IRRESPONSIBLE me.

But please, there's always two part of one story.

I seriously can't handle too many things at once.
I suck. I terribly suck at that.
I'm not a good multi-tasker.
unlike you, I wish I'm as good as you.
I really do.

Whenever I'm in band practices;
I'll be wondering how's work?
How's my friends at work?
Is everything ok?
I miss them.
& end up LOST in my playing.

They as close as all of you(readers & fellow friends).
I don't know how they do it, but yeah we bonded.
through thick & thin, we're always there for each other.
Daddy problem, tiring problem, and what nots,
they are always there to give you a helping hand
& let you stand strong once again.

they're special.

If I were to quit working,
I'm gonna miss them.
Naz, Shiqi, Edmund, Zaid, Eunice & the list goes on.
All of different backgrounds yet,
we can relate to each other with problems.
That's how special they are.

and we don't even need ORIENTATION camp to bond soo well.
I'm always comfortable around them unlike band.
Where I always think I'm the inferior one.
The one who is always lagging behind & always getting tired sooo easily.
The one who's not enjoying band while others are having a great time.
the STUPID one.

They are too special which I can't let go of.
I will never let go of my friends.
I'll be there when they're in need.
That's what friends do don't they?

They say "you need time to be good again."
"one year of not practising, of course you'll need to practice to be good again."
But, I don't have time.
I seriously don't.

Don't ever question yourself about your capability.
It's not your fault,
it's MINE.
yup, I respect you.
I thank you for everything you've done.
It's just me being selfish.

I like working.
Work is becoming like a hobby/destress area for me.
They are always friends around to make me laugh and leave my problems behind.
Before I start one whole round of mugging again.

If I were to let go ONE;
I will never ever choose to quit working.
My friends are there.
They are those whom I always seek refuge to;
those who know me best.
I don't know why, but yes
I will never find other friends like them.

They really mean alot to me.

I know nothing last forever,
all of us from different walks of life with different dreams & destination.
But please let me be the last one to stand
and see where they go;
That will be good enough.
I don't want to be the first one to say goodbye.
I don't intend to.

You've written your piece.
& here's mine.

1 full week of papers should be enough to kill me.
Monday to Friday of papers will be one hell'a ride.
6 weeks since school started and I know nuts.
Catching up never seem easy.
Lagging behind is not a pretty sight too.

I'm ready to face the deadly truth,
the truth that this is gonna be my worse conduct ever.
as in punctuality, grades, tutorials and everything.

Realised that this common test gonna affect my 2.2 specialisation program.
I should forget about it. Forget bout Aerospace Technology.
I'll never get it.

I have no interest for BAND anymore.
It's taking too much of my time.
'I have everything except time'-Janet
That's sooo true.

I'm calling the quits for BAND.
So now, I can concentrate on studies & work.
At least for work, it seems like a 'hobby' & hanging out session
where I can chill and just be normal.
Like a place to runaway from all the school stress.
With great friends and company.

For BAND, I'm always soo stress with the parts
& tend to feel super tired after that.
Last time is different from now,
SEC SCH- tend to have more time for commitment in BAND.
and being in the committee was exciting infact.

Good luck for the rest.

I'm not gonna regret this.
Everything/Anything but this...

*taken from ceetee's blog*

Putting that aside, I know I can never replace a friend with another friend, but I can't resist but see quite a number of similarities between my two friends - Hashilah and Lavania.
*ahem, I'm praising you both... some people ought to be jumping for joy now XD*

Both of them:
- can really perk me up
- make me go out of my comfort zone, ie doing very silly things in front of everyone
- really have that bubbly personality
- have model looks/figure
- they might sometimes bluntly blurt out words that can hurt, but their innocence just outweighs those 'words'
- have I mentioned that they make me really happy?

*hashilah, I still remember vividly how I was scared of you XD*

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AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!

*tears, thank you-s*

hey.

School ends early today. Had our ‘formal’ presentation and everything went smoothly and was a breeze. Except for the fact that I whispered “ehh slowly” to Ryan who was handling the presentation. Yupp.

Naz sms-ed whether I can work today at 12-6pm but sadly I can’t since I already planned my day/daily routine. I waited for the rest at the atrium. Azizah and Janet used my lappy to do some last minute changes to their report. So I stoned into space while waiting for them. I don’t even know what I was thinking about though. Yishan joined us soon after that.

Min Si couldn’t recognize me in my formal clothes. Hahahahaha. That’s kinda shocking!
Then went off to town and visited the store and saw Alison Chan and Naz. Managed to say “hi” and then went off for some food-hunting as all of us were acting like some hungry ghost.

We walked to Wheelock to see some nice food but couldn’t find much. Janet wanted to eat Fish&Co while Azizah doesn’t want to. Walked back to Far East and ate Ramen Ten instead. Ate & slacked at Ramen Ten for quite a long time. The songs being played there are not that bad. Clubbyyyyy and abit of emo-ish songs.

Then we went off to grab some cookies from Famous Amos and Yishan made me buy the 250gm instead of the 200gm. hmmmmmmm. Yishan and Janet bought some too! Walked all the way to Taka and sat outside the Crystal Jade to slack and munch on our cookies and then is was just us being crazy! Please take note that Janet, Azizah & me were wearing formal clothes!

As all of us were beat, we decided to go home and I visited the store to check my schedule again as I’ve forgotten who I’m suppose to be working with.

Then took 700 from there.

Emo songs make me feel low.

Goodbye my friend.

hey

okay, I went off during break since my running nose & sore throat is getting way beyond control. This shows that never try and go to school when the doctor has already given you 2 days medical certificate. told you everything has a reason shilah, see-lah act strong only! -.-

okok at least I managed to get through DEL & MATHS alive. hahahahaand my DEL lecturer/tutorial kept on asking "are you ok? are you sick?"oh yeah, got back MATHS quiz 1 results and well I passed it though. hahaha 24/25. ok lahh but lost 1 mark to some bloody careless mistake. gahhhhh never let your carelessness get the better of you. yup!

sooooooo..

ok now sucking on this stupid sore-throat medicine which is green in colour and taste exactly like toothpaste. and yupp, it's minty! and I hate mints. especially those.. ok nvm I guess Siti knows what mint I'm talking about cause I've been rejecting minty sweets from her for like don't know how many years already. and also I have some weird muscle-relaxant medicine which I have no idea for what purpose. 0.0 but it's paracetamol cum muscle-relaxant so I guess it's all cool. yaaa.. and the usual runny-nose pills.

and ermm, nothing much happened today except for the hu-ha that happened cause I didn't managed to meet up with the rest of the IS group to do powerpoint slides for tomorrow presentation. ok dieeeeee. I'm like sooo dead.

for some weird reason, I feel like daring myself to type out a post in malay ! hahahaha i'm sure it would be fun.

my day is alright, how about yours?
hope all good!

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku

Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang tlah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

I have no idea why such simple words can bring tears to my eyes. =\