hey.

my lessons ended at like 10.30am when it supposed to last until like 12? hah. cool eh. slacked! so now in the atrium waiting for her er & azizah to go town. atrium is like still filled with CCA-s booth instead of those "normal brooding studious" ambience. Saw norman going down the stairs and talked abit. like "ehh your IS what time?" "hah! I finished already !"

anyways, slept at 2am plus yesterday and so today almost couldn't wake up. But hey, I managed to wake up and prepapred everything for my sis to go to school. goo me!! (:

back to the topic, went to school thinking I was going to be late. Instead I reached at 7.40am and slowly strolled to block 56. Oh ya, I bumped into Kenneth in 184 bus. hah. actually i dao first, cause didn't know what to say. I was siting while he was standing as 184 was damn packed. When I was about to alight, I have to walked pass him and so, I tapped on his shoulder and said "Kenneth" and just wave. and yup, He's taller than me. hah!

I slowly strolled to block 56 thinking that Television Beyond Entertainment is gonna be like, I'm gonna be alone? I was the 2nd person to reach. slowly, one by one people starts coming in and hey, Nurul from tennis is in my class! haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. then alot of people were late. Made new friends during that module. There's like 5 girls, me, nurul, jingjing and hidayah(sp?) whois like from Tanjong Katong Sec and she was from the band too! haaaaaaaaaaaaa.

she: you last time from which sec school?
me: *playing lappy* West Spring..
she: west spring ? what cca??
me:*looks up* military band.
she:I was from Military Band also! from TK.
me: o..m...g i was just watching TK's marching band performance for the SYF last night. 0.0
she: why your band uniform almost the same as TK's ?
me: haaaaaaaaaaaa... dont know.
so dot dot dot, we went to both the same year of competition. like erm, 2004. She told me that she came late for the competition and went towards WSSS band thinking its TK, then she when she reached there (as in the place where wsss gathered near the national stadium) she said she see all the people and knew nothing of them. and so, she left! hahahaha. how weird ehh, meeting people whom you thought you dont know but years later, strangers will become friends.

and oh, the 'horse' or azizah would call it 'kuda' was from my primary school. and now we're like in the same class! Oh My God.

then,then.. for Television Beyond Entertainment, we watched I Not Stupid, Sex & The City and another two which I forgot the title. we watched clips on it. The longest was like 30 minutes and the room was like freaking cold. then talked about the taboo in media world of Singapore. sex..violence..and yeah what nots.

anyways, LOOK-ALIKE is in my IS class! hah. how odd! and Mr Clement asked us to bring the latest issue of 8-days next week but LOOK-ALIKE wants to bring FHM US version instead.

and as an announcement, wednesday my lesson will be at 9-12 and not 8-12. caused Mr Clement thinks we're not that of a morning person! wooooo.

school is getting fun. (:

hopes all good readers.

speak soon.

hey.

I have no idea why but I decided to go on a time travel on faizah’s blog. As I read some of her entries, the past started to be soo real that I was actually thinking, why must everything come to an end?

Faizah’s blog is seriously like a history book.

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credit to faizah:

Saturday, July 09, 2005
Heyx! Guess what! I went to watch Fantastic 4! Whee-Hee.. Its so fun. I mean, of course arx. Its a Girls Day out for me and my precious GirlFriends.. ;)
To Jan Marie, NoorHashilah and Siti Zuhailah: Thanx for that wonderful time watching Fantastic 4. ;)
To NoorHashilah : Maybe we should cycle more. **Crash!!! ;)
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Siti, did u just got a "smack" from Hashilah for kicking a soccer ball at her?

Saturday, February 19, 2005
harlowx .. juX got home .. go to school to do spring cleaning .. hahax .. only Me , Lala , Poooox , and D tSar came .. hahax .. had so much fun cleaning up the class .. laugh here and there .. hahax .. we talk about everything under the sun ..
plan about the class T .. gosh ! cant decide .. so many disagreements .. wanna ask the class on monday .. gosh ! they are damn hard to please .. HELP !!

Monday, June 27, 2005
Change of time-table with effect from today. Sheez! And guess what. PE during 1st period. Gosh! Can you imagine that? Well, 4A didn't exactly have PE lar today. We just sit in class and joke around in our own groups. Hahx! We are BIG actors. And I really mean it. When some teacher take a peep into our class, we'll look down at our open books and pretend to be studying. But actual fact, we're actually faking it. Hehx! Of course lar. 4A mah. We are One of a kind. ;)

Wednesday, July 27, 2005
After school, ME, Hashilah, Dhi, CT and Jan saved a cat. We spent around 40 mins just to get the cat out. Actually, its all thanx to The Bravest, Most Wonderful, Little Miss Kitty, Siti Zuhailah. If I weren't for her patience to endure the smelly of the PEE of those kittens. 2 white kittens are super fierce sia. They did the "grrr" effect (in a kitten way). Super annoying. Prays hard that Hashilah's mom allow her to keep the kitten. In fact, 2 guys around there helped us in catching the kitten when it tried to run away.

Friday, July 22, 2005Me and Hashilah had planned to cycle to school tomorrow. Guy, watch out, man! The girls are conquering the roads! Hehex! I'm only joking. I hope that Dhiya will also cycle with us. Surely we're going to have loads of fun, yeh? Too bad Siti doesn't have bike, if not, the Angels are soaring the ROADS! Hehex! CRAP!

Wednesday, July 13, 2005
4A has to visit the CNB for some Learning Journey thing. The class is totally chaotic without Ms Wee around sia. Shucks! OXJ received scolding from the officer cause he was making so much noise. I thought its going to be boring, but actually, its kinda fun. He told us some funny stuffs while Xplaining the dangers of drugs(of course).
In the bus home, my GirlFriends are really quiet. Dhi slept in the bus, Azizah, Dawina and Pooja talked occasionally. Hashilah and Jan were busy chatting. While me and Siti just enjoy the musics from our MP3.

Saturday, August 27, 2005
I actually went for History class today.
Lol!
Fortunately, Mr Santokh was punctual.
First time sia.
Me and Hashilah cycled to school.

Thursday, August 11, 2005
Had my O' Level English Language Oral this afternoon. I had never felt so nervous for my English Oral before. This is the first time. Lol! Like most people say, "There's always a first t ime to everyhing."
I was in the second group. While waiting for my turn, I just read through the yearly oral topics that was given by Mrs Ang. It didn't make me feel better, in fact, I was more nervous than usual. Shucks!
Me, Stella and Lala were acting super crazy. We played with the bluetacks and doing "Kallang Waves". We were laughing like crazy (but in a quiet way).
Really cool.

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-Yes, I had fun during the movie outing.
-Yes, we should have cycled more!
-hahahaha! And yes ! I remembered Faizah crashing into some bushes while cycling.
-The spring cleaning which I seriously must thank those who helped out, if not I’ll have to just do everything alone. I remembered.(:
-Did I smack siti for kicking the soccer ball at me? I can’t remember. I think I did. HAH!
-The class tshirt turned out just great!
-How united were we as a class?
-We saved some cats/kittens and get dirty in school uniform!
-I miss Jan now, it’s been long since I actually really sat down and talk with her.
-Hahaha! Imagine the crazy us goofing around while waiting for our turn to sit for the English O Levels Oral. Kallang waves!!

But hey, I’ll have to moving on! (:

hey!

damn sian.

last 2-hours of lecture before I can finally call it a day.

and edmundlim just pangseh (left) me just like that ! He couldnt come to school..idiot! haha. It's okay edmund, I'll remember this for life. (:
anyways, now siting outside with the class waiting for the lecture room to be open. speaking of which, I'll be seeing those in B134 soon. wooo.

had a terror lecturer for TP. how nice.

on the good side, I'll be having school from 8 to 12 tomorrow! yes! going home soo early after like 2 days of 8/9am-5pm. wooo go me!

I'll slowly do things right from now on.hah. & maybe I'll make a list so that I can slowly start doing things and just not trying to run away from it. I'm new and ready to go. I'm off to clean/tidy up my home when I reach home.

speak soon.

If I could,
I would tell her,
Not to be afraid,
The pain that's she feeling,
The sense of loneliness will fade.

super messed up me.
dammit all these challenges.
I miss the old me.
Someday I will understand
In God's whole plan
And what he's done to me

I'll take the time to slowly clean up everything. I'll face it. I'll be a stronger person by then. I'll make it through.



shilah™ - says:
azizah.. why is this year just too harsh on me ?
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
god is testing ur patience..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
and i'm sure u can hang on there..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
liku-liku kehidupan.. there's ups and downs..
shilah™ - says:
im losing everyone
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
u'r enot losing anyone yet..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
we're still with u..!
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
no worries..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
we're not going to leave u alone by urself..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
we can meet often during breaks and after school..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
it's part of life..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
stay strong..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
u can do it..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
don't think too much.. ur mum will be back after she had relaxed her mind..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
mum and dad sure had a tiff..
` REFLECTIONS ON REALITY - says:
so, now no worries okays..

I'll try to look at you and smile. I'll show you that I'm fine.

but I must say, I'm not good at acting. How to be fine when I'm not? I thought I would be okay after thinking to myself not to think of it,alighting 2 stops before my actual bus-stop and walk home slowly. Walking back 2 stops so that I'll have the peace to think through all those stuff/pain I've been going through. I'll be better by the time I reach home but hell no, I cried myself to sleep. Laying in my bed for 2 hours trying my best to sleep in between sobs. Watching funny videos only helped me by a few minute.yes,yes I laughed while watching a video of Lisa Kudrow from Friends. Yes,yes I typed the word "HAHA" on the msn conversation. But I can't run away that easily. Who was I trying to kid? The pain still stays.

It's been long since I last cried.It's embarrassing to cry shilah..

Hope school can help me in a way or two to help me stop thinking about all these stuff. I'll be fine but it takes time.

afterall,

i've lost.

hey.

too many sleepless night kills you.

-I didn't realise that buying presents is such a hard-task.
-Not enough sleep = stoning.
-I'm not smiling enough.
-I'm tired of wondering.
-I'm indecisive.
-Too many thoughts at once.
-Losing concentration.
-Losing my grip on everything.
-Need to speak more of my thoughts rather than just keep it to myself.
-Don't know how to put my words together.
-Mix feelings about the new semester/people/friends/promises.
-I've made/lose some friends.
-Not doing things that I'm supposed to do ages ago.
-I'm being stupid.
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-I should just give in.
-Something is just missing.
-I'm tired of looking & finding.
-Should just let go.
-I'm human afterall, I make mistakes.
-Saying 'sorry' is really that difficult?
-"on" & "off" switch of emo-ness.
-Have I hurt you in anyway?

I really need to go back to ngeeann by tomorrow or else, the long queue is the only fricking choice. by hook or by crook, I'll have to go tomorrow. and off I'll go for work.

yup.

where did my happy bubble go to? where's everyone? =\

& everything coming to an end. =(


there's gotta be more to life.

hey!

have no idea what to blog about today. Oh, I signed a pact! Iza & Jan came to visit my workplace today! (smiles) bloody Iza has to give away my secret ! Meeting azizah & herer to go to ngeeann to buy notes for the coming Monday! (=

school starting! Hope it'll be alright!

speak soon.