it's official.

That I'm sick today. I hate it when my mum start putting thermometer into my mouth. My bloody throat hurts like mad while my nose is forever running like some water-tap. And for once, I don't feel like talking too much.

Wanted to go to school today as I woke up at 830am. Start sneezing like mad and that's when my mum asked me to check my temperature. ok lah, 37.9 isin't that high.gahhhh and she asked me to go doctor and rest at home instead.

I'm supposed to meet like lots of people today,

Kenji+Ryan+Kid+Nurul for project
Faris to teach him Telemunications
Band
Hand in camp forms and also pay for the camp.

ok dieeee.

gonna rest now. Hope all been good.

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day,
your week, your month,
or even your year...

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cos you're there for me too...

why oh why must FRIENDS be gone ? hahahahaha okay, FRIENDS is good.

ermm, I'm kinda stuck on what to do now. what should I do ? study.. study.. ermm.. okay, I'll start by studying Digital Electronics! gahhhhh. I'm gonna beg my dad to pay for my ECE ADVENTURE CAMP fully! He only wants to pay 50% of it lahh, damn it. okok, enough complaining. and oh, my family will be going Genting while I'm off to ECE ADVENTURE CAMP. how nicee. well, thats what they said on our trip home when they fetch me from work. tsk!

ok full-stop. I can't think about anything else to blog about.

I wonder how's work today & calvin goldspink dyed his hair blonde lahh! what the hell.. gahhh.

my bloody throat hurts like mad!! ughhhhh :(

Hope life all good!

hahahaha.

Work was fun today and damn it, I’m getting meaner each day & I realized that people are scary when they’re mad. Tension everywhere and a super small ‘war’ can spark anytime. A cockroach crawled onto shiqi's back and hahaha it died after that! hohohoho

Common test coming = holidays coming! Hahahaha. I’m trying to like psycho myself into looking forward to common test for some reasons. Yupppppp, I’m nuts.

Oh yar! I didn’t go for band today! Hahahaha overslept like hell. Band starts at 1pm but I woke up at 2pm. Like what the hell ? hahahahaha alright, I’m still alive. No worries.

Won’t be working tomorrow (Sunday) and I feel damn awkward not working on a weekend. Will spend my time revising then. Hahahaha righttt. Of course I’ll be revising!

Gooooooo shilah ! *hands up in the air*

ps: did I tell you I saw naqiyah and janice yesterday? woooo. hahahaha

hey there.

I fell asleep at around 1am plus and woke up abruptly at 3.08am crying, panting and drench in sweat. Another nightmare, another sleepless night and yup, I'm afraid. I actually cried while sleeping..

Sister was shocked to see me screaming "nooo, nooo,noooo" like ‘don't-know-how-many-times’ (quoted by sis) for that night/morning. hahahahah and she decided to sleep in my parent's room. My first nightmare for like.. ages of not having one.

Mum said maybe it's cause I'm too occupied/thinking about too many stuff at one go before going off to sleep. yeahh, maybe she's right. Never felt as tired/shag as this for 17 years of my life. Everything is going too fast. I lost my hold on stuff since long ago and I don't even know whether I can gather them all back one by one before it's all too late. I'm beat.

Some friends of mine can't believe that I'm actually slacking real bad. Yess, I've been skipping lessons. Yes, I've been sleeping in between lectures, Yes, I've been the one asking for help nowadays instead of me teaching the rest who needs my help. Yes, I've been sleeping in bus-rides and wherever I go to instead of reading up on notes cause "I don't understand alot of things."

I'm really sooo down now but even the best fall down sometimes. I got expectations to reach out for. Expectations not from me, but from some others. But I believe it's for my own good. They wouldn't set such high expectation for me if they don't love me. But what if I'm losing my faith on all these....

Maybe I'm just thinking too much. Yeah that should be it. Shilah thinks too much when the matter is as easy as ABCs isin't ?

Off to doing my report now and I have yet to start on my common test revisions. In every bad, there's always some good.

And for some reason I miss my grandparents who left me ever since I was 9 years old. My grandmother who left when it's like one day before my 8th birthday. My grandfather who died like 1 year later after my grandmother's when he just arrived Singapore (from his homeland, Indonesia) hoping to visit us in Singapore but 'fainted' at some bus-stop and yes, couldn't make it. and not to mention the grandparents on my father's side who I have never see before. I miss their love and their comfort. I miss having a life. I miss having someone to cry on and easily ask for help when my mum/dad scolded me or even beat me. I miss sleeping over at their place. yes, I miss it all.

That's the reason why I always get curious whenever friends talks about grandparents. It's like "woahhh, soo good" those kinda thing. yeahh..

Where's the love now?

hey ho!

Saw a lot of familiar faces in 184 today. Eg. Suhaifah, Siva, Alvin and also one more girl which I can’t remember what her name is. Fellow westsprings people! (: Didn’t talk a lot with them, just a simple “hi” and a smile before I emo-ed my way to school while listening to some songs. Superr tired.

I was the second person to reach school today! Hahahahah sehhh. Even the lecture class door wasn’t open yet. I was the second person to arrive besides Kenji being the first. Talked while waiting for Mr Clement to come.

Oh yarr, currently using vista transformation pack for XP. Super cool. Ok abit side-tracked.. -.-

Watched some videos about the different cultures/practices in Singapore depending on various races. The show was called “The Gods Must Be Hungry” taken from Discovery Channel. Interesting show! Learned a lot from that particular video.

Mr Clement gave us break before he start the quiz. Me & Nurul went off to Co-op and get some junk before going back to class. Quiz was alright. Passed though. And It was like some bloody surprise quiz. Lucky me

Met up with Yishan, Janet and Azizah. Then I went off to meet someone as I have matter to attend to. Janet left earlier since she will be working. Dhiya joined us instead! We went to chill/slack/crapped/makan at Holland Village after I finished doing my stuff. The place is like super cool. Windmills !

Dhiya will be having her driving BBT test today. She wanted us to wait for her till like 6pm ? But the rest decided to go home first. Walked with Dhiya to the bus-stop while Azizah & Yishan took bus from another bus-stop.

Dhiya was like talking to someone (whom I assume is her boyfriend) on the phone. Hahahaha. See, I was like talking to some wall while walking to the bus-stop. Wthh and let me remind you I was like super high.

Oh yahh, I got a new motivation to look forward to in school. (:

And Yishan is super good at finding my new blog lahh! HAHAHA!

Ok, super sleepy now! Gonna take a nap before I get a kick-start on my surveys, em3a tutorial & also my 800-1000 word report.

Help me do a simple survey please ?

Hope all good so far!

Oh god !

Please forgive me. I’ve did the most sinful things in the century.
No, I didn’t kill anyone.
No, I didn't cheat on anyone or anything.
No, I didn’t steal anything..

But..
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.
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I pon-ned Digital Electronics lecture and tutorial both on the same day!

Long story short, I couldn’t wake up to go to school early in the morning today. What can I say ? I was too tired/sleept after burning midnight oil for the bloody maths test today. So I decided to skip both digital electronics lecture and tutorial and came to school only at 11am for the maths test.

Speaking of which, the maths test was surprisingly manageable! Hahahaha. At least I can do all though. But I assure you there’s like dozens careless mistakes or something. Heck!

Telecommunication lecture was a drag. I was basically just copying down notes blindly while listening to some songs. Imagine, there your lecturer talking while your ears were already plugged. Yup yup!

Analogue circuit design and application lecture was alright. I managed to pay some close attention to his “MIC” accent after which I gave up half-way through and just copy down blindly and Azizah was there to spot the mistakes which I’ve copied. Told you I was copying blindly and played my friend’s psp for awhile during the lecture.

Alright, enough of today.

Went to town after school with Yishan, Janet & Azizah yesterday. Janet & Azizah had to find some formal clothes for business etiquette project. Walking around randomlessly was rather tiring. And oh my god, finding formal clothes that suits us personally is very very difficult. Visited the workplace to crap for a short while and some nice people actually told that “free hug” people that I wanted free hugs. Omg! o.0

And we took lots of photos! (courtesy of yishan & azizah.)

Tomorrow will be having lessons from 9-12 and will be staying back to teach Azizah maths. That is if I know how to. 0.0

Okay, off to more tutorials now! Common test cominggg!

Free hugs anyone?

hey hey you you !

I was just checking my NPmail when I decided to take a break from revising my engineering mathematics and I saw this :

I am wondering.....Where is everyone hiding? How come I cannot find you? Are you not talking to me and not talking to one another? What am I going to do with you?

Oh. I means the DISCUSSION FORUM.
I have, so far, 5 participants, including myself. I wait for you to post your comments.
Hey! You are MY STUDENTS! Friends, If I cannot depend on you, whom am I going to depend on?

and to make matter more "funny" the title of the mail was like " I am missing my students"!

o.0 omg..

I have a super act cute engineering mathematics lecturer cum tutor! hahahahahaha ok.. that abit weird.

ACT CUTE!

okay.. I'm off for somemore revision!

hope life been good!